Almost Died That Morning
About 4:00am, January 23, 2019 – I was airlifted from the Tooele Hospital to the U of U Medical Center to repair a total blockage in his Left Anterior Descending Artery (LAD Artery, ”The Widow Maker”)
After a day and a half of little sleep because of all the tubes and wires strung across me and all the visiting doctor from out of state and even out of country was the realization that I still needed to breath, eat, and sleep. I still wanted to eat as usual and reach out to my acquaintances by text and phone. Listening to my favorite music still had value AND there was special reasons for giving my God thanks and appreciation. The routines, behavior, and attitudes I have learned still have great value in the “up and downs” of life. In fact, doing some of the same things during the down times is what minimizes mood swings and the duration of any depression.
More important than the details of the morning, the surgery, and the fast recovering is what changed and what didn’t change. Since I almost died that morning, I am now open to receive more, and I will create more, share more, and love more. This event was the start of new thinking about how am I going to live a more meaningful life. I have had a good life. I don’t have any fear about the future. I just want to fine tune how I experience life and improve my behavior so I live more passionately and value what really matters. It was a few months later that I started thinking about how others could benefit from what I was going through.
What did change is my desire to receive more, create more, share more, and love more. Not so much because of the shortness of life or my fear of dying but more-so my increased appreciation of the opportunity of life complete with a spouse, family, friends, country sides, mountains seascapes, moon, stars, sky, sun, clouds, animals, plants, etc. etc. It’s about time that I start experiencing and enjoying life more.
So why am I still contemplating new opportunities… maybe it’s a sort of “later-life crisis” as opposed to a mid-life crisis. There are many successful baby-boomers in the same phase. What I do for me may be of benefit for many others. I have sold into the “C-suite” many times to CEOs, CMOs, and COOs and their next step for bigger “success” is often personal and emotional work. I’m looking for more deeper personal connection, more personal creation, and more moral contribution to individuals and collaborative communities. I’m hopeful to get a new focus, plan and start creating before the next year 2020
